Thursday, June 16, 2011
Who am I and what have they done with Reya?
"The courageous among us will purposely spoil the sleekest form of our story." ~Barry, of Astrobarry, Astrology for People Who Think
Did you feel the power of yesterday's eclipse? I did. I really did. I "listened" carefully, tuned in to one of the darkest lunar eclipses in history. Holy cow.
The insights I received from the deep listening were wrenching, but resonant. Whoa! Deep truths came to me; the experience was profound. But what was in many ways more interesting than the insights themselves was my reaction. It would have been characteristic to draw my sword, engage in battle with the information - you know - push it away, deny it or perhaps get angry, try to figure out who to blame. Maybe I would have tried fighting with God (I love a good argument with the Divine, I really do - though of course I always lose those arguments).
It would also be characteristic to respond by collapsing, deflating. I might very well have just crawled under the covers for the duration. I've retreated in the face of big truths in the past, certainly.
Miraculously, I was able to take a breath when the lightbulb over my head switched on. I'm proud to report that I neither pushed the information away nor was I taken aback or hurt. I'll be processing this experience for awhile, that's for sure, but I don't feel wounded or pissed off. Maybe I'm in shock. Or maybe I'm making room for this new perspective, letting it settle down. My fists are unclenched and my heart is rather open. Honestly, this is a miracle.
Also it didn't hurt that yesterday my iphone arrived. What a miraculous piece of media. Ahhhh ... a well timed spoonful of sugar really does help the medicine go down! Oh yeah.
Time is my ally at the moment, providing what I need when I need it. Knowing full well that I might be griping and complaining again before you know it, I am nevertheless VERY grateful right now, in this moment, to feel rather graceful. This is SO not me! Ha.