I have not been exactly seizing the days lately. I've been contemplative, patient, uncharacteristically graceful and accepting. I've been like a walking, talking version of the serenity prayer. Bloody hell. Who am I and what have they done with Reya?
The truth is, I'm stagnating a little bit in all this luxurious gracefulness. I guess it isn't grace anymore when I spend hours staring into the half-finished wealth corner without lifting a finger to move things along. Or maybe the right way to say it is: first I was graceful, but then I got downright lazy - or stuck - or distracted. Probably a combination of all those things, eh?
As if to dance in shamanic alignment with an inner stillness gone a bit sour, my clients have gone awol. Well, just a couple of clients, but these people ALWAYS show up for their sessions. It's very uncharacteristic of them to forget to show up.
Two no-show clients in two days kicked my ass back into gear. I'm about to put the final touches on the wealth corner, then go for a nice long bike ride. It's a beautiful summer day in DC. I need to get out there!
Well. Who knew that even graceful heart opening can become an enchantment, even the most beautiful stillness can become stagnant? Not me, apparently. Forehead slap. Oh yeah.
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all things in moderation dear Reya.
now about that wealth corner...maybe that's what's wrong around here. I've got the horseshoe over the door tacked up in the proper way but it doesn't seem to be working.
A horseshoe would look great hanging above the new wealth shrine. I'm so pleased, though I have to buy a new shelf for the lower portion of the corner as the one I have is slightly too small. There's always something!
I am sitting here pondering the difference between stillness and stagnation. I am thinking it's kind of like that proverbial half glass of water.
I love those lavender steps.
Interestingly, I just copy edited a manual for massage therapists. I learned a lot about how difficult it sometimes is to stay present when your work is so physical.
when the breathing in is done, then you breathe out! steven
meaning, that you give so much of yourself in each session that a lot of wind is taken out of your sails every day
Beth that is such a load of crap. Most massage textbooks are utter shit. One thing they should teach in massage school, but usually don't, is exercises in how to focus. I learned that in shi'atsu school but there was nothing about it in the course I took on massage for clinical settings. They would say "Center yourself," which means almost nothing to most folks.
I do NOT give more of myself to this work than you do to your work - you have to focus, too! For heaven's sake.
Steven, there's that small pause between the in and out. Sometimes that small pause gets elongated, magnified, exaggerated. Ya know?
And Kerry, stillness is really different than stagnation. I'm going to write more about it tomorrow - received many insights during my bike ride.
Reya: I DO give a lot to my work. Thanks for being affirming.
Beth OF COURSE you do! Everyone who does a good job - at anything - has to concentrate. For heaven's sake.
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