Friday, August 5, 2011
Both pics taken with the iphone. The pic at the bottom of the post is funny, I think. Inadvertent. Look at those pursed lips. My goodness.
August is well underway, a good thing actually because once August is done, most of the DC summer will be done. Oh yeah! Though I have many friends born this month, as well as a prominent Leo rising as part of my astrology chart, August is my least favorite month of the year.
In August, my stomach hurts no matter what I do or do not eat (the sufi acupuncturist says it's the damp heat). I have the weirdest dreams of the whole year in August (checked my dream journals yesterday to confirm that this theory is actually true). The blazing heat and high humidity combined with palpably shorter days is a real bummer, I tell ya.
It's not all bad, though. In August, Washington DC is quiet. Lots of people leave town so there is less traffic, less noise. It used to be that the tourists vamoosed in August, too, but I saw lots of tourists yesterday while I was out walking around on the National Mall. Definitely there are fewer tourists in August, so that's good.
One of my theories revolves around the idea that August is a month well suited for detox. I think we should ALL get out of town for the month, allow the swamp in which we live to boil undisturbed for a few weeks, thereby cleansing itself. Getting out of town, as so many of us do, breaks the routines of our lives, allowing us a chance to let go of the usual thought and behavior patterns. This kind of break is definitely one form of detox.
Perhaps this process I am now in the midst of is some kind of internal cleansing. As with all types of rehab, it is not comfortable, but it's dawning on me that the flopping around and dissatisfaction is opening a space in which I might lay to rest yet another layer of uptightness. I've tried hard to be noble and upstanding here on the blog, for instance, as a way of mitigating a tendency towards shame about who I am. Maybe I'm ready to lay down the burden of shame, and in so doing, become more authentic without apology or the need to always be high minded.
Wouldn't that be nice?