Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Is frozen pizza delicious? Because that's what I ended up "cooking" for dinner yesterday. My room is sparkling clean, something I'm having a hard time appreciating since I couldn't enjoy the process. Usually I love to clean my room. I know, it's weird, but I do. Ordinarily, cleaning brings instant gratification, clears my head, helps me calm down, makes me feel productive. Except - not yesterday.
Though it was a non-day all day yesterday, there was one very cool moment of vivid synchronicity. Just as I was having a little hissy fit because I couldn't find my art pen, a quick rain shower swept through, from out of the nowhere, it seemed. I think there might have even been one small crack of lightning/thunder. How sweet of the weather to dance shamanically along with me!
After that, I hunkered back down into a state of non-productivity and non-creativity. I was devoid of inspiration. So, apparently, was the weather. Meh.
Even though a voice keeps whispering Enjoy your detox into my ear (detox from Clif bars, coffee, dark chocolate and wine - I'm into week three of this cleansing), in spite of the encouragement, I am flopping around, still, from withdrawals. Coffee, wine and dark chocolate are happy foods. I miss my happy foods.
I know it's all for the good. I shouldn't complain. Maybe I'll shut up now! Oh yeah.