Tuesday, July 17, 2012

Berserker Reya



Feeling moody today? I certainly am. It's hot, Mercury is retrograde, and the dark moon, along with several other key planets, is creating a cardinal grand cross in the sky. Good lord. I suspect also that an aspect of this mood has to do with the ongoing wrestling match I'm engaged in with the idea of shalom, the perfect peace, the word engraved on my arm forever and ever, till death do us part. Integrating this mark on my arm is much more of a challenge than I could ever have imagined.

It has healed physically. The color is brighter, which is nice - woad blue, as a friend describes it. Woad blue shalom. Hmm. Is that an oxymoron or what?

I am lucky not to have any clients scheduled, hence I've been able to grump and whinge to the mirror, the four walls of the chateau, and to the cloud people and the birds outside my windows. Birds are almost always tremendously moody, at least they seem so to me. When I bitch at them, they cock their tiny heads and, I believe, flash me a knowing smile. Little dinosaurs! I am one with the moody birds today.

Nothing addresses a bad mood as perfectly as a cleaning frenzy, especially when it's 100 F. outside. My kitchen and bathroom are spotless, the floors have been vacuumed and mopped to within an inch of their lives. The last load of laundry will go into the dryer forthwith, after which I'll switch on the dishwasher.

Cleaning the way I do is definitely a coping mechanism - but it works for me, and after I'm finished, the chateau sparkles. There's no harm in that, is there?

This evening I'll get out of the chateau to celebrate the 50th birthday of one of my nearest and dearests. I'm very much looking forward to it in spite of the heat, the grand cross, and my hellacious mood.

It's just one day in my long life, just one single day. This, too, shall pass, and when it does, I'll laugh at myself. I always do.

Shalom.

10 comments:

glnroz said...

this makes me grin,,,i can almost feel the mood...don't miss that spot, there,, :)

Reya Mellicker said...

Ha!

Gary said...

Right you are! Cleaning is a good outlet. I clean when I feel anxious or worried. Four years ago when Ed had issues with his heart the place was spotless inside and out. I think it was a way of taking control of something and it took my mind off things. That and napping.

Have fun tonight.

Pam said...

Yeah. My remedy too. Whenever anxious, angry, or waiting on something,ie. news including that very important phone call, scrub and shine - then scrub and shine some more.If I am furious, my bath and shower will be guaranteed to sparkle! x

Kerry said...

This makes me want to clean the house and I'm not even in a bad mood. I hope you have a wonderful time at your friend's party: sounds like good timing to me.

Angela said...

I was just procrastinating after I had filled my floor cleaning bucket and found your post. Now I have fresh energy to scrub and wipe!
And talking about birds - a few days ago a sea-gull dived down over my head, ON PURPOSE, and unloaded a great deal of pooh on my shoulder. Then it flew up on a lamp post and shook with laughter (they are called Lachmöwen, laughing seagulls). Birds, ha!

Angela said...

Berserkers did not clean, as far as I remember, but killed each other when moody. So you are a civilized berserker, Reya!

Reya Mellicker said...

Seagulls do make a sound like a chuckle. What a creep though, to poo on your shoulder.

Civilized berzerker? Another oxymoron. Ha!

Pauline said...

When you can channel energy in such positive directions, why resist?

Steve Reed said...

I'm glad your tattoo is healing, Reya. Hopefully integrating it into your life will become easier and easier. It would be tragically ironic if "shalom" disrupted your own personal peace! It's always a struggle when the weather is really, really hot.