Friday, July 15, 2011
People work through things, they do. They work their way through relationships, jobs, physical, emotional and mental states and illnesses. Sometimes they make it through the task at hand, sometimes not. I think the best possible outcome is the gaining of wisdom or insight in the wake of these challenging situations. The saddest outcome is to work through something without learning a damn thing. It happens, and maybe all is as it's supposed to be when it turns out that way.
The process of acquiring wisdom, or at least working towards that goal, is strenuous. Though I work diligently towards greater consciousness every day, when insights arrive, they still pack a wallop.
This morning I'm thinking about relationships of arduous karma I've taken on in my 58 years. I had fourteen years of arduous karma with Jake, my beloved dog. My marriage, too, must have been a hell of a payback for something or another, as was the five year partnership that followed my marriage. I could go on, but I'm sure you get the idea.
I used to joke with my colleagues in Reclaiming about how every depiction of the wise woman archetype was of an old, wrinkled hag with a lot of scars. I joked about Odin, the father god of the Norse myths, how he traded an eyeball for wisdom, hung on a tree for nine days in exchange for the wisdom of the runes, etc. It seems that in looking to gain wisdom, those of us devoted to that path believe any price is worth paying. Ha ha ha ha ha. Wait! Is it funny that gaining wisdom is exhausting, painful? That it ages the person aquiring it?
Recent revelations have hit me hard, like a bright ball of divine light upside the head. I'm staggering around at the moment, yeah. What has come to me, about my marriage, partnership, about Jake - is really potent, powerful and I'm SURE after some serious contemplation, I'll gain a drop or two of wisdom from these insights. But oh my, oh my.
I'm thinking carefully about how to perhaps by-pass any future opportunities to work through arduous karma. Is it possible? I'm going to try! Is it any wonder I love living alone and have not been in a rush to get another dog? Well? Bloody hell.
Happy Friday, y'all.