Thursday, January 6, 2011

Epiphany



Am I still creeped out? Yes I am. Am I really tired of feeling weird? Oh my, yes. Even my unconscious is bored with all the emotional drama. I dreamed last night that I was at a family reunion. One of my cousins, someone who was in charge of assigning tasks, said my job at the reunion was to write the family soap opera. Ha. That's funny. Even in the dream, I had to laugh.

It's true that I have, in some form or another, been indulging the weird feelings, feeding them with worry, carefully transcribing the dreams in great detail every morning and such, trying to understand what is, after all, incomprehensible. Today my strategy is to focus instead on sending protection to the tribes of birds and fish, since they are dropping like flies all around the earth. As far as I can tell, I'm OK, but the birds and fish are really struggling.

2011 is, so far, completely weird. I can imagine myself a victim of the energy or I can stand tall and do my shamanic thing. It might not make a difference, but it's better than sitting around, feeling spooked, yes? I say yes.

Poor birds! Poor fish! May you be safe and protected, may you flourish. So may it be.


Epiphany is here which means most people will toss their Christmas trees out on the pavement. In DC, this is a good thing since the trees are collected, made into mulch, and then spread, later in spring, in public gardens and on the national mall.

18 comments:

ellen abbott said...

It is a choice, you know, to feel the victim. And it feeds on itself and attracts victimizers so I say definitely stand tall. Because something is inscrutable is no reason to feel at it's mercy.

Reya Mellicker said...

I could write a whole post about this, Ellen. Sometimes an emotional state sweeps over, like a storm system, and it's inevitable that I'll get drenched. Eventually I come to a place where I am able to choose to come in out of the rain, but initially I'm not so sure that there is a choice, or that avoiding every storm is a good thing. I have so many thoughts on this. Maybe I'll post about it tomorrow.

Jo said...

It's important to pay attention to the small creatures. Like the canary in the mine, they are the harbingers of unseen dangers.

May they be safe and protected, and may they flourish...so may it be!

mouse (aka kimy) said...

may the great windstorms of life touch you with the softness of a
gentle breeze.

oh yes, the poor birds and fish, not only in arkansas but it seems all around the globe. like you i'm so heartsick about this....

jeanette from everton terrace said...

My husband and I have been talking about the wildlife. What is going on? It's filling my thoughts.

Reya Mellicker said...

So may it be indeed.

Nancy said...

What a great suggestion. Send out as much loving energy as possible to the birds and fish. That, I can do.

Reya Mellicker said...

Thanks, Nancy!

The Pollinatrix said...

I overslept this morning by over an hour. My alarm went off and I promptly went back to sleep and had vivid tremendously disturbing dreams that I am still trying to recover from. Then I went back and read my posts from this time last year. I did a three-post series called The Epiphany Chronicles, which was all about the weirdness and turmoil and upheaval I was experiencing. And interestingly, I had a vivid nightmare the night before Epiphany, just like this year.

I, like you, am consciously taking the "stand tall" approach, and focusing my mental energy on blessing others instead of dwelling on my own darkness.

Pauline said...

I think it's a good thing you can feel nuances in the energies that surround us - and that you share them. What is to come (no matter what it is) won't be such a surprise if we're forewarned and pay attention.

Reya Mellicker said...

Polly I went back and read your chronicles from last year. Wow! That is really something - the nightmare at the mental hospital, the black sludge, the Bee medicine. Wow. Thanks for the context.

Tess Kincaid said...

I certainly could write a soap opera about my family! I've been feeling weird, but I thought it was because I'm afraid of my root canal scheduled for next week.

Reya Mellicker said...

That's a fairly decent reason to feel weird. Hope it goes smoothly, Tess.

Annika said...

Came to your blog after realizing I may need a respite from the news (birds and fishes, the tax on witches) and found a bit of synchronicity of 'sensing' in this post of yours. I feel 2011 has a very strong undercurrent of weird. Knowing that it's not a personal thing, I think we can set forth to keep senses alive to what's really going on.

steven said...

all those poor little critters - hard to know what happened to them all although there are all sorts of possibilities being represented. all in all i figure it's an epic request to leave and come back in some other form. which i'm good with. other than wondering what they needed to leave and why. steven

Reya Mellicker said...

Flying and swimming animals are the ones going down for the count. I have no idea what it means, but I'm still sending good, strong energy in their direction.

A strong undercurrent of weird. Oh yeah. Annika if you figure it out will you let me know? Thanks.

Lizzy Frizzfrock said...

I agree with Ellen. Stand tall! Don't let the weirdness creep into your life.
What is going on with the birds & fishes (although I did not know about the fish)? Is there some poison, does it have to do with the ozone layer; I hope the scientists who are studying this come up with an answer. It is scary indeed.
I spent the afternoon watching the beautiful birds in our community. I cannot imagine a world without their beauty & song.

Barbara Martin said...

It is always best to think kindly and to keep one's feelings out of the gloom despite the strange occurrences. This year, I think, is best dealt with by healing thoughts and energy to those that need it, especially poor Mother Earth.