Saturday, June 20, 2009

Worrisome Distractions


Does anyone else see a face in this pic? Looks like he's frowning to me.

Today I thought I would write a third post about entering the new age, a place without corporations or heroes. Tryptychs are such a lovely, harmonious form, don't you think?

But it's rainy again, so the wind has gone out of my sails (or should I say all the hot air has dispersed?)

The main reason I can't think is because Jake is very ill. I had to take him out a dozen times during the night. Not only did I not sleep because of that, but because I'm wondering, "Is this it?" Is this his way of telling me he's ready to step through the veil, join the other dogs in canine heaven? Everyone says I will know for sure when he is ready. We'll see if that's right.

He drank some water just now, a good sign. I'm making some brown rice cooked in chicken broth, always his favorite food when he isn't well. We shall see if I can get him to eat a little bit.

I can't write a good post today. All my energy and focus is on my old, old dog. Maybe tomorrow, OK? OK.

39 comments:

lakeviewer said...

Reya, this is a tough time for you and your 'gold puppy'. We lost two dogs in our family, and both times were sad, sad moments. You want to avoid that extra suffering at the end, but the decision is one of the toughest you will ever make.

That puppy will be in our thoughts too.

Rain said...

Hi Reya. I don't know what to say...I wanted to say I hope Jake will be alright, but I guess I want to say I hope Jake is comfortable. My two old guys are 14 years old this year, I worry when they're sick too, or if their mood changes...Take care.

Btw, I saw eyeballs in that puddle.

Teri and the cats of Furrydance said...

Focus your energies with Jake, I know your thoughts need to be with him right now, anything else would surely make you feel "guilty" in a way.

I have lost 4 beloved cats since moving to Virginia in 2001 and each one has a place in my heart and they are truly still here with me, from a favorite pink chair, to memories of special moments each one shared with me, like Bo liking to be brushed with the hair dryer brush each morning to napping in the sunny guest room with Winnie.

He has given so much to you, that you can't imagine life without him...but truly, he will be with you always. What you do from here on out will have a little bit of him in it...you will see.

willow said...

Sending good thoughts and prayers your way for Jake. Poor buddy.

Yes, I see a sad face in the pic, too.

Lisa said...

thinking of your pup and yes, i can see the face in the water

Lynne said...

Pats to Jake and hugs to you Reya!
It's so hard to watch a good dog grow old.
XXOO

Fidgeting Gidget said...

I hope Jake feels better....and if he can't, I hope you have the strength do to what may eventually be best for him. He's in my thoughts. Poor pup. Thinking of you, too.

mum said...

Hey Reya, nothing else to say except best to you and Jake

Joanna said...

Thinking of you taking special moments with Jake. Sending white light to both of you.

Verily I go. said...

Reya and Jake. I'm so sorry for this pain. Peace for both you my dears.

The Bug said...

Thinking of you & Jake today...

blackbird said...

Oh, Reya- I've come to know Jake through your blog and can imagine what a difficult time this is for you. Trust yourself to know that whatever you do- it will be the right thing for Jake.

Hoping for peace and comfort for you both.

Tom said...

Your Jake has been such a big part of your postings, that it is easy for us to worry right along with you...and the rainy weather doesn't help...hoping he feels better soon, if that is to be.
Yes...there is a face..but it's an inverted smile!

Val said...

hugs to you and Jake. worried too now xx

Chris Wolf said...

breathe in deeply, spend time together, love each other today in peace and with grace, hugs to you

Joanne said...

It's good you're so tuned in to Jake, your great companion. I hope you have a very peaceful day together today.

deborah said...

so sorry about Jake

light and love and a nap to you

all my love

deborah said...

btw

mouth on the face looks as though it is drooling

love you

C.M. Jackson said...

Reya--

Our thoughts are with you and Jake-

best-c and Max

Lover of Life said...

Ohhh, Reya, our hearts are with you. All of us dog lovers out here know exactly what you are going through. Sending love and light.

Yes, I see that face, and it is frowning.

Andrea said...

I know how you feel. When your dog/cat/pet is sick, well, it just wipes the energy out of you. Hope he's doing better. Sometimes they have a way of just perking up all of a sudden!

PurestGreen said...

Oh, your poor puppy. I shall think positive puppy thoughts. He will find a way to let you know what he needs.

Alaine said...

Reya, I really feel for you; our dogs are such a part of us but our hearts break when they're ill. Poor Jakey.

The face in the pic looks like my Pug.

Reya Mellicker said...

I can feel all your good wishes. Thank you all so much. Jake ate a little bit of rice and had a drink of water today, didn't do much of anything else but sleep.

Who knows what will happen through the night? I'm not hanging on, but worried anyway. I don't want him to suffer.

Natalie said...

Much love and healing coming your way, Reya and Jake.xxxxxxxooooooo♥♥♥♥♥

tut-tut said...

Stay with him and hold him.

There is a face beneath that face, Reya. do you see it?

Delwyn said...

Hi Reya
When Jake is ready to leave Kealia will be there to show him the ropes...

Happy Days

Sandra Leigh said...

Yes, a sad face in that photo - like one of those sculptures made from nails. I'm sorry that Jake is so ill - cyberhugs to you both.

poietes said...

Special thoughts to you and Jake, your Gold Puppy.

Yes, I saw the face right away.

Take very good care.

Auntie, aka Dog Girl said...

Reya,
There is nothing more poignant than a geriatric pet...we care for them as small children.
We have one very old dog (in addition to one young pup) who breaks my heart everyday...But i know she had (and still does) a very good life here.
(hug)

Washington Cube said...

Summer Solstice Shift

Gary said...

The picture looks like the frog prince to me.

Sorry about Jake. I have been through this and know about the worry and concern. It is very difficult. Like the others I am thinking of you and Jake and sending supportive, loving energy.

k-brow said...

Oh Reya,
Sending you and Jake much love and support, for whatever happens tonight. May you both sleep with sweet dreams.

lettuce said...

oh reya, i'm so sorry

what a strange sad hard time for both you and jake.

thinking of you

Val said...

dear Reya - an award for you at mine. Hope Jake is OK?? x

John Hayes said...

Reya, I'm sorry I missed this yesterday-- my schedule has been nuts-- & I'm glad to see today that Jake's feeling better. But your love & compassion for Jake seems so very real, I know you'll be able to that dog's companionship even when he's physically gone.

Lizzy Frizzfrock said...

Ah, sweet Jake. My heart goes out to you & Jake, the gold puppy. He's a love. I will think positive thoughts & send good vibes from me & my little old Gertie Girl.

smith kaich jones said...

Reya - This is just hard & there's no way around that. I am going through the same thing with my cat, and find myself in tears at the most unexpected moments. I am reaching out my hand to hold yours. Take care.

Debi

Just me said...

Reya- I totally missed this post when it was posted. I read today's posts and hope it's ok that I'm posting, even though you disabled comments on that one.

I just wanted to tell you I'm so sorry and I totally understand how you are feeling. I'm going through the same thing with my B-dog right now. I had an anxiety attack while in the car yesterday- the first in a really long time.

I now I'm going to have to have her put to sleep before the summer ends, and I'm obsessing on every little possible symptom.

Hugs to you and to Jake. I hope Tuesday is a peaceful day for you.

I've been holding on to this ever since I first saw it. I hope it's true.