Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Dazed and Confused
What is this street light thinking about?
I'm having a hard time thinking this morning. If there was a thought balloon floating above my head, it would be thick, yet vague, with blurry writing that's not possible to read, not unlike the cloud above the streetlight in this picture.
Thinking takes time, something I haven't had a lot of in the past few days. The weekend was lots of fun, including plenty of social interaction as well as a full schedule of work. It was a satisfying, vivifying, fabulous weekend I wouldn't trade for anything.
But, because of my busy weekend and the resulting sleep deprivation, my brain is stalled out, flooded, unresponsive. When I knock on the side of my head, all I hear is a hollow echo. Helloooo?? Is anybody home??
Reading about the "logic" that fueled this country's involvement in the Vietnam War, I wonder if Dean Rusk and John Kennedy and all the rest of them might have benefitted from some down time before they made their tragic decisions. Maintaining American prestige as a reason to go to war? Whoa. By 1960, presidents were no longer taking long walks around the city. What a shame. I mean that literally.
Today and tomorrow I'll have time to, as Gertrude Stein explained it, "sit around ... doing nothing, really doing nothing." That sitting around (or most likely for me, walking around) will give me time to sort through my scrambled neural network. Maybe then I'll be able to think clearly.