Thursday, April 5, 2012

Pass over

Easter week tends to be strenuous psychically and spiritually. This year is no exception. The ancient themes of springtime surrender followed by redemption, aka death and rebirth, loom large in the Reyaverse. Of course I'm not the first, nor will I be the last, to feel unnerved at this moment in spring.

Today I'm thinking about how the story of Jesus on the cross is a grisly depiction of letting go, the idea that has been much on my mind of late. Another ultimate depiction is the story of Passover in which the Jews leave behind the lives they've lived for 400 years. I know it was slavery, but they were accustomed to it, they knew what to expect. Beyond Egypt was nothing but the desert. Who would willingly go forth into the sand, rock and penetrating sunlight with no idea what would happen next? The ten plagues were, in my opinion, not just to convince Pharaoh to release his grip on the Jews, but for the Jews themselves, to kick their asses out of the old routine. We humans hang on tight sometimes. It takes convincing to get us to change.

I love this old video, watch it every year. It's so silly.

One of my enslavements is the habit of worrying about everything. Spirit of Eagle has encouraged me to open my clenched fists. let go of this habit which reflects my ingrained distrust and showcases how superstitious I am. If I don't worry, something bad will happen? At some level, I believe this. For heaven's sake.

May I leave behind (for the most part) my inclination to worry this year as I cross the desert! May I be willing to let go without the added inducement of plagues. May I be graceful, may I be unenslaved, may it be so.

It's not even Passover yet but I'm on it. Shalom.


ellen abbott said...

letting go is a good thing. when it becomes a struggle to hang on then it's time to let go.

Reya Mellicker said...

Yes indeed!

nerima roberts said...

Reya, I forget who said this: If you have to worry, then only worry if you can do something about it. But if there's something that is totally out of your hands, then don't bother worrying about it.

That has been helping me a lot lately.

X said...

Just saw this and seder video was just plain fucking excellent

Reya Mellicker said...

For me, worry and other emotional states are not rational. I've tried but can not deal with worry in a rational manner. Hoping the energetic release works.

X I laugh every time I see the video. Hilarious!

Pam said...

Interesting this letting go. The term "keeping a grip on reality" is a term I ponder, particulary the fierceness of the word grip, as I watched my aged loved ones in their fight with dementia. The fear of letting go...and my mother's hanging on to the need to be right - always.
The need to let go of a driver's licence...and when does caregiver's concern just morph into worry.
Finding your posts very apt Reya - we all need to let go at different stages in our lives, but what needs to be let go and the decisive point of when, is sure worth pondering!

Reya Mellicker said...

I remember when my father in law had to stop driving. It was so awful for him to admit it.

If we were more accepting of aging, perhaps it would be easier.

Maybe not, though.