Thursday, April 5, 2012
Easter week tends to be strenuous psychically and spiritually. This year is no exception. The ancient themes of springtime surrender followed by redemption, aka death and rebirth, loom large in the Reyaverse. Of course I'm not the first, nor will I be the last, to feel unnerved at this moment in spring.
Today I'm thinking about how the story of Jesus on the cross is a grisly depiction of letting go, the idea that has been much on my mind of late. Another ultimate depiction is the story of Passover in which the Jews leave behind the lives they've lived for 400 years. I know it was slavery, but they were accustomed to it, they knew what to expect. Beyond Egypt was nothing but the desert. Who would willingly go forth into the sand, rock and penetrating sunlight with no idea what would happen next? The ten plagues were, in my opinion, not just to convince Pharaoh to release his grip on the Jews, but for the Jews themselves, to kick their asses out of the old routine. We humans hang on tight sometimes. It takes convincing to get us to change.
I love this old video, watch it every year. It's so silly.
One of my enslavements is the habit of worrying about everything. Spirit of Eagle has encouraged me to open my clenched fists. let go of this habit which reflects my ingrained distrust and showcases how superstitious I am. If I don't worry, something bad will happen? At some level, I believe this. For heaven's sake.
May I leave behind (for the most part) my inclination to worry this year as I cross the desert! May I be willing to let go without the added inducement of plagues. May I be graceful, may I be unenslaved, may it be so.
It's not even Passover yet but I'm on it. Shalom.