Tuesday, March 27, 2012

A Mighty Worrier

That is not a typo, I am indeed a mighty worrier. It's a habit I believed was an integral part of me (whatever that means) all my life. Lately I've been urged by my spirit guides to break that habit. They are encouraging me to trust. I have to do my part - return phone calls, schedule appointments, do the laundry, etc. In return the world will respond by holding me securely. What a concept! Gravity is reality but I have tended not to trust even that. I really am a mighty worrier. Or - I HAVE been. Now is the time to make a change, to connect to the nurturing powers of planet earth. In this way, or so say the spirit guides, I can become a relaxed participant in life. This is my goal for the decade of my sixties. I am tired of worrying.

The Spirit of Eagle tells me that a healthy sense of pride is not accessible to those who worry constantly over everything small and large. Worry obfuscates pride. It's interesting to think about.

Hence I will not worry about what's going on down at the Supreme Court. The justices are scrutinizing the health care law. I've listened to bits of the proceedings on NPR. Can I just say: BORING! They're playing a mindgame in there that only lawyers could possibly understand. May clear heads prevail. Good lord!

Outside the court it's more fun. There are tons of reporters of course, also various groups most of whom are against the law. I watched an interesting exchange between a guy from one of those groups and someone who was there to support the idea of national healthcare.

Man against: "Canadians have national health care, but they cross the border to access our health care system!"
Man for: "Not any of the Canadians I know!"
Man against repeats exact same statement.
Man for (puts it together in his mind) "Oh - you're talking about cosmetic plastic surgery that isn't paid for by the Canadian government."
Man against repeats exact same statement.

The man in support was thoughtful and calm. The man against seemed stuck in an angry loop. It was kind of fascinating and I wondered what the Sufi acupuncturist would make of his behavior, the look on his face (which was a frozen mask of anger). I only wondered for a second, though, because the energy was really intense down there. The environment is not conducive to practicing trust. I beat a hasty retreat.

Life is good and I am grateful. Shalom.


I need orange said...

I worry too much, too.

One knows that many evils lurk. One knows that bad things WILL happen. Paying attention, one can avoid many bad things.

Where, exactly, is the boundary between reasonable care, and worrying too much? It's impossible to see (shrouded in mist), and I suspect it shifts........

I'm using two thoughts to try to keep me from worrying too much.

“Worry is a misuse of the imagination.” ― Dan Zadra

(I have no idea who he is, but I think the quote is useful.)


"Almost always, everything turns out ok." -- moi

Oh, yeah, there's always that Serenity thing. There are an awful lot of things I can't do a damned thing about. Trying to not even think about them!!!

Reya Mellicker said...

For me, worry is a habit. It is not connected to anything "real." If need be, I'll create a story to support the worrying. It's kind of an addiction!

Do evils lurk? I know shit happens, but I see the world as a complicated place in which evil is intrinsic, but perhaps not lurking. Does that make sense?

Reya Mellicker said...

Good is also intrinsic.

I need orange said...

Interesting. I worry a lot, but it's always about something concrete. And there's always something "worriable" out there; I don't have to make it up..... :-)

After leaving your blog, earlier, I stumbled across this:


The guy walked all the way across the country, and blogged it. That post is a summary of one aspect of his experience.

My two favorite quotes from that (long) post:

"We never give ourselves the chance to learn that our fears are baseless, because we isolate ourselves from the situations that can challenge our fears."

"The world is like a mirror; if you smile at it, it smiles at you." -- Peace Pilgrim

Reya Mellicker said...

It definitely does.

Rather than worry, how about instead wishing or praying for the best outcome, and trusting that the world unfolds always including some "bad" but also some "good"?

Does it help in any way for me to worry? I'm not seeing how it is ever appropriate. Sadness, fear, hopefulness, compassion for others as well as for myself - I see all these as honest and appropriate responses. Worry? Hmm ... I'm thinking about it.

Elizabeth said...

My funny son is quite interesting on politics....
says there isn't too much difference between how our life would be under more Obama or Mitt.......
under Obama the rich have the lowest tax rates EVER
and Mitt (at least used to) quite want affordable health care........
Many Americans are quite nuts about health care which the rest of the civilized world considers something like roads and education that you get automatically......

ps I worry about everything endlessly.
The answer is called massage+Xanax!


ellen abbott said...

I'm not a worrier. It doesn't do anything but make the worrier feel bad. When I feel overwhelmed, and usually it's in the wee hours of the night, I just tell myself that there is absolutely nothing I can do to help myself or rectify the situation at 2 AM. It doesn't help me sleep necessarily but it does stop the worrying.

Steve Reed said...

Yeah, I'm not following the debates too closely. There's not much I can do about it, after all. But I think you hit on a phenomenon that affects much of the right wing -- an inability to present a critically reasoned argument, as opposed to a loop of learned sound bites.