Friday, March 2, 2012

As it should be



Thirteen hours of sleep did me a world of good. I took a 2 hour nap yesterday afternoon yet was still able to sleep hard for 11 hours last night. When I sleep long, when I wake refreshed, I am so happy. It makes me cringe a little, realizing that the new parents have not likely had anything close to a proper amount of rest. In exchange for their sleep deprivation and exhaustion, though, is happiness at the arrival of their daughter.

I'm working hard all day today, trying to make up for the cancelled appointments Wednesday and Thursday. But get this: for the first time in years (unless I was traveling or taking a class), I have the entire weekend free. Whoa. A real weekend, like a real person. I'll need it; no one gets over a marathon in one day, at least not after age 50, but still ... a whole weekend? It's almost freaky.

Feeling good today to have laid down the mantle of doula. (I never liked that word. It doesn't adapt, how does one conjugate this term? Doula-ing? For heaven's sake.) It wasn't my best work and as I am speeding straightaway towards the end of the decade of my fifties, it's right and proper to release all endeavors that don't fit like a glove.

In exchange for my willingness to loosen my grip on what no longer makes sense, I feel I'm being given a free weekend. What a blessing! With a big bow I say to the Mysterious Ones who arranged the timing of this: THANK YOU!

Shabbat shalom, y'all.

9 comments:

Elizabeth said...

Shabat shalom indeed! and happy you are going to have a nice relaxing peaceful one --well deserved.
I have just been catching up on your recent posts....
yes giving birth is magical awe-inspiring, tiring, anxious-making, joyful and so on and so on....oddly I have never witnessed a birth though my son and his wife have such lovely photos of the whole happy at home water bath arrival of baby Gretchen.
Anyway wishing you all good things
ox

Cyndy said...

Enjoy your free weekend and your doula-free future!

Reya Mellicker said...

Thanks you two!

Butternut Squash said...

Somehow, I already miss you as a doula and I didn't even know you that way. But you are right, you must bow and bend to your intuition. Enjoy the rest.

Reya Mellicker said...

Thanks Butternut. The client I just saw said she hopes I'll change my mind. Thanks for the votes of confidence!

Tom said...

you're all twinkly! maybe I'll feel that way after a nap.

ellen abbott said...

It's so freeing to let go of the things that no longer fit us.

Jo said...

Enjoy a well-deserved, hard-earned, full-blown weekend, Reya!

Eastern Market, National Gallery, Matchbox, Peregrine, walking and photographing....or sleeping!

So many options, I can't wait to hear how you spend it!

Reya Mellicker said...

Jo I will spend it EXACTLY as you've described, plus I'm getting together with friends, also will go visit Savannah Grace and her parents Della and Matt on Sunday.

Woo hooooooo!