Saturday, July 31, 2010

Inner and Outer Storm Systems



This has been such a hot and stormy summer, so far at least. There is a way in which all that external storminess has made it possible for me to feel more or less serene internally. Of course I'm always involved in various dramas, of course. But during stormy, super hot July I moved house, dropped deeply into certain relationships, reconnected with great old friends, put other relationships at a loving arm's length, all with a great measure of calm. The weather gods took on the work of stressing out, it seems. Within the weather systems there was much wringing of hands and gnashing of teeth, if (that is) you believe that it's possible for the weather to wring and gnash. Me? I had a smile on my face throughout it all. I should also say that it was really too hot to muster the energy for any big emotional outbursts.

Yesterday the weather broke. It was so lovely. It was a day of gentle air, gentle sunshine. The birds chirped, a slight breeze stirred the air. It was lovely. I finished working early so was able to take a nice walk. I did my usual thing, strolling and gazing around, taking pictures. I honestly believed I was dancing in perfect shamanic alignment with all that external gentleness. But then last night, a big ole emotional storm passed through me. I had a total meltdown. Whoa. What was all that about? Was I in some way trying to make up for the suddenly gentle weather? Because honestly there was no reason to get so worked up. Maybe it was just time for an emotional discharge, as my old homeopath used to say. Or something else. Emotions are, after all, not rational.

The weather predicts me, though at times it does not reflect me. Que sera sera. Happy Saturday. Shalom.

14 comments:

Vicki said...

Sometimes a good old fashioned meltdown makes you feel better in kind of a cleansing way. The body has to have some form of release or we would implode. Much love Reya!

jinksy said...

I hope cool and calm is now the order of the day...

Reya Mellicker said...

Thanks, Vicki. A lot has transpired this month. I've been so blissed out, I don't think it all registered until last night.

Jinksy! Thank you. I owe you a visit. xx

ellen abbott said...

Yeah, sounds like all the emotional discharge from all the changes came at once. You must have relaxed in some fashion that allowed it to get out.

Liza said...

"The weather predicts me, though at times it does not reflect me"
That is such an interesting thought Reya.
Happy Saturday.

Tom said...

happy saturday indeed, and happy for the cooler temps, but the dew point is still a bit too high...enjoy!

Steve Reed said...

Who knows why meltdowns happen. I think they're just emergency relief valves that open when our inner stresses hit a certain level -- even stresses we're not aware of!

Celestite said...

Happy Saturday, Reya.

Reya Mellicker said...

Of course I thought about you today and yesterday, Tom. It should have been like THIS when you were here!!

Linda Sue said...

'Yesterday the weather broke" is such a cool line- I think that you could write a novel around it!
My life is so disjointed and has been for a couple of years...maybe this is a phase to grow into- A sort of spinning above the surface phase? I love reading your thoughts- they make me feel less spinny.

Reya Mellicker said...

Dinner with a cute Brit boy, then rattling and dancing around to the Watson twins, seems to be an anecdote to inner storms. At least tonight. yeah.

Jo Floyd Lucas said...

Storms are usually unpredictable, moving through at their own frequency and strength. We have no control over them, right?

Best to just put your head down and walk into the wind, Sister.

Much love coming your way tonight.

Barbara Martin said...

Emotions are perfectly natural, Reya. They keep you connected to the divine. Your meltdown probably had something to do with the Cardinal Climax today where you had a blockage that needed moving.

Reya Mellicker said...

Barbara as usual you have named it perfectly.

And you, Mo Jo - always there when I need you with your wisdom and compassion. Wow.