Tuesday, December 4, 2012

Wonderful star!


It's dawning on me that while in Kansas City, I will be engaged on many levels. First and foremost, I will be submerged in the complicated energies, memories and emotions that are bound to be a part of the unveiling ceremony. In addition, I'll be connecting with many friends from many eras of my life, as well as spending lots of time with my beloved sister. This trip is going to be big. Really big. Epic, mythic.

I'm an introvert, and (as my mother used to say) "too sensitive." If I don't at least try to manage all that energy, my antennae will jam, I'll be knocked for a loop. I'll be rendered unable to function. I don't want that! I really want to rise to the occasion. 

Within the galaxy of every complicated situation, there is a focal point, a pole star that - if located - can provide a point of stability, a steady place from which to survey whatever it is that's happening. I think of ballet dancers, of ice skaters who can spin around forever without getting dizzy. They know something I need to learn - asap, please.

Hence, I googled "pole star worship." Number 3 on the Google list was a post I wrote in 2009. How funny! Here is a link to the post. Apparently this idea has been floating around in the moldering depths of my brain for a number of years. I'm slow, but eventually I get around to these things.

Thanks to the nice algorithms of Google, I was able to read about ancient mariners who, in their own way, engaged in pole star worship. I also read about the practice in Taoism, as part of Japanese ancestor worship, in shamanic traditions, and in Hinduism. I love the following, taken from a book of "cradle tales" for Hindus. 

For the fact that seems most deeply to have impressed the Hindu mind was not the appearance of the starry dome so much as the perfect steadiness in it of the Polar Star. Wonderful star! The only point in all the heavens that stayed unmoved, while round it came and went the busy worlds. And this stillness moreover must have characterized it from the very beginning of things. It was never for the Pole Star to learn its quietude. It came by no degrees to its proper place. Rather has it been faithful and at rest since the very birth of time. Surely in all the world of men there could be nothing like this unswerving, unerring from beginning to end, the witness of movement, itself immutable. 

I love the starry dome because I love the big picture. I believe a broad understanding of anything comes via the big picture. I think the long view is most true. OK. Fine. My mistake is to think of myself as a big picture person. The big picture is way too big for me to take in all at once. I need to be anchored, a witness of movement rather than the overwhelmed shaman who is trying to dance with every part of the movement all at once. I am holistic, yes, but the big picture knocks me to the floor, time and again.

Hence I must learn to navigate the big picture by way of its pole star, whatever that is. Just as I was wondering about it yesterday, I came across this story from the New York Times, about how important it is to keep one's eyes on the ball. Yes! This is what I'm talking about.

In Kansas City, I must keep my eye on the pole star. I really want to. I wonder if I will be able to do it. Ya think?

The inside of a gigantic topaz at the Natural History Museum. 


Cindy said...

An epic journey indeed. This is huge, life changing, healing, cathartic. I wish you many blessings and much love along the way.<3
(As fellow introvert with mild ADD- I feel ya. I love the idea of keeping focused on the pole star. I think a compass with a big arrow pointing to the pole star and beeping when I get off course would really help!)

Reya Mellicker said...

What a great idea. I bet there's an app for that.

Meri said...

The concept of transparency popped into my mind. . . of letting the energy pass through you like light through glass. . .

Pam said...

A lot of fun going back to the 2009 post! Loved your concept of the Star Mandarins.
I've also felt there must be some sort of cosmic 'paperwork' heirarchy and always put in a prayer request to be 'dealt with' believing we are delusional if we think, as a tiny human microscopic speck among the seething millons and billions, that we can speak directly to God, or that ' I felt that God was telling me' as so many claim. I am a strong believer in intercession.
There must be more to the stars than we will ever know, and also to the heavenly heirarchies, of which we have only a hint.
Evidently keeping your eye on the ball, and thoughts on the polar star are something you are being guided to. I'm sure your trip will feed your soul in very many ways.

Cindy said...

If there isn't, there should be!

Reya Mellicker said...

Pam I have a very intricate theory about the hierarchy, more fully developed than in 2009. Will share with you sometimes.

Meri I've tried the energy moving straight through me approach - this is what the Sufi acupuncturist always suggests. But by passing through me, the energy changes me. I have no chance to integrate what has happened. Whether I take it all in or let it all pass through, I get disoriented. Unless I can locate the pole star.

Sounds crazy, hey?

Reya Mellicker said...

I just re- read the nytimes article. I will need a calm, focused eye on this trip. Hmmm

ellen abbott said...

I think yes. You can.

Amazing that humans believed that earth was the center of the universe when they already knew that it all revolved around the pole star!

Reya Mellicker said...

That is interesting, Ellen. Wow.

Rebecca Clayton said...

I hope you have a wonderful experience!

When things seem unpredictable and confusing and fast-moving, I just try to attend to the flesh-and-blood aspects of the experience--where do my feet go, step by step? What should I bring with me? (Knowledge, a sweater, comfortable shoes?) I think Polaris is too sophisticated and distant a focal point for me. (Maybe I'm a microscope gal, not a telescope gal.)